I started a Bible study three weeks ago called respectfully yours. The basis of the study is "the secret to power and influence in your marriage". I'll admit after the first class I was worried I was in the wrong place. Tyler and I have a great marriage, and at that point I didn't really understand what I could learn from the class. I feel like I already show my husband love and respect on a daily basis, but I decided to stick with it because it is never to early to learn. While some of the things we're discussing might not have to do with my day-to-day life right now they might come up in the future.
I'll admit that yesterday I did not want to go, I just wasn't feeling well and still didn't think I was really gaining anything from the class. But I pulled it together and went anyways, I made a commitment to go so I just needed to go, and I'm so glad I did.
Last nights session was called Who Does God Think He Is and it ended up being exactly what I needed to hear. I'll admit in the past I've had issues with "letting go and let God". And in last night's class we really discussed just trusting in Him and the fact that he will lead you in the direction you're supposed to go. Which is something I've always felt very strongly about even if I didn't always believe it. Even at the lowest points in my life I tried to remind myself that God has a plan, and while I couldn't see the bigger picture he did. Sometimes that was/is hard to swallow but it really is true. One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5-6
So how does this pertain to marriage? Well for me it means that Tyler and I are married for a reason and if things get rough we can't just give up like so many people do these days. Marriage has become such a disposable part of our society and it's heartbreaking. In our study book there is a line that really spoke to me, "God loves you too much to let you stay there". The "there" could be good or bad in my opinion. God will constantly challenge us but will also show us mercy, we just have to trust in Him.
Also in the book it says "May we suggest that you are facing a crisis of faith more than you are facing a crisis in your marriage?". DING DING DING! The reason I am in this class hit me straight in the face as soon as our leader read that out loud. No, I'm not having issues in my marriage, I am having issues in my faith. No, I'm not questioning my faith, but I am at a point where I want my faith to be stronger. And this class is allowing me to surround myself with Christian women who I can learn from and lean on.
I'm so excited to move forward in this journey of making my marriage stronger as well as building my faith.
I feel like this was kind of all over the place and I appologize for that. It's just where my brain is right now.
And just because it's throw back Thursday, here is a picture from when my niece Ella was 9 months old